statement of who ever used lsd

Until a few days ago, my life was simply perfect. Healthy parents, saúdável, lots of friends, a girlfriend who I love too much. I was very, very happy, moved always hadsomething to do. Go to the beach, go out in the daylight, the night date, listen to music, play guitar, talk on msn with wonderful people, eat, I took pleasure in things.Had just received the news that came to my job at UFRJ engineering was super well.Anyway, my life was perfect.

I'm an atheist, I have always been, since I was a kid. About 3 months ago I purchaseinterest and I've been researching enough about psychedelic drugs. I discovered that there is a consensus that these, when used correctly, can be very useful tools in the construction of self-knowledge and spiritual opening of an individual. Were basically 3months of research, studies and consultations with various and several people whohad used psychedelics, until I could reach the conclusion that this drug-LSD-don't do me no harm. Is a gateway drug, which does not cause "absolutely no physical or mental harm", as it is "virtually impossible to her that" addiction not only in theopinion of the users as of thousands of specialists (psychiatrists, neurologists, etc)around the world. It wasn't something I did for fun, feel wave so inconsequential. It was something well planned I did in search of self-awareness, after making sure that I wouldn't do any harm.

Well, there's 4 days ago, exactly 11:0 in the morning, I used the drug. Exactly half a dayI started to notice the effects: the lights were stronger, some things seemed larger or smaller than usual. Shortly afterwards could see holograms of kaleidoscopic formseverywhere. Simple things like the leaves of a tree or wood from the ground suddenlybecame quite interesting, and I could see patterns and details on things that I had never seen before. The rain seemed intense, beautiful, wild and divine, and cycling in that storm was one of the most extreme sensations of my life. The trip was simply amazing.

Until that time was passing, it was already midnight, 12:0 after the beginning of the effects, and wouldn't go away. At this point, I was supposed to have passed almost completely, but I kept seeing caleidoscopios, my mind was completely distorted, my head was heavy. 13, 14, 3:0 pm and the effect was. I couldn't sleep (which is natural),but still, I started getting desisperado because I was very scared that something hadgone wrong, that didn't spend the next day. So all I wanted to do was sleep.

Fell asleep with all hope that I'd wake up better, and when I woke up the next day ... all hell broke loose: any visual effect had passed, but my head was still hot, hazy, cloudy. I realized I had lost pleasure in things. I couldn't eat, which is something quite unusual for me. Even in the worst moments of my life I NEVER stopped eating. But now any food tastes like crap. Gone is the libido was pleased to chat with friends. Any conversation seemed superficial. I that before was amused and laugh a lot and could drive the subject with virtually anyone, I didn't know what to say and not felt like say anything. The whole world seemed to be different. I didn't really know what was wrong, but there was something wrong. As if it was all a dream, as if nothing was real. My vision was burning too much and stay in front of the computer was a pain. I started to get anxious. I couldn't stay long in the same environment that I was beginning to feel aguniado, needed to get out there, do something else to calm me down. But no point, that something else was equally morbid and meaningless. I went to the beach to see if it improved the mood, and things just got worse: I discovered that I act like a victim socially. Simple things like getting a ticket on the subway require all my reasoning capacity, now and then I get autistando, atonito, without any reaction. I will not pull more subject, just answer the question. As if I wasn't there. As if I was in another universe, with only a slight contact with the world. And sometimes I think I am.

Ask help in some forums. The conclusion was that it was all in my head, that in dozens of years LSD never damaged the mind of anyone and wouldn't be my that would bedamaged. To give it some time, that in 1 or 2 days I feel brand new. Well, spent 1 day,2 days have passed, 3 days have passed and I'm still in the same State. No, absolutelyno improvement. I came to the conclusion that I really buy any permanent mentalproblem.

I know I'm slowly losing all conquered. The friends I made, at the time, support meunconditionally-but for how long will the presence of a victim who does not feelmoving ...